Ramblings and Promises

Hi.

So I realize it’s been a while since I wrote something here.

It’s been a crazy couple of months since Fallen Star release. We are working on a new project now which I’m still not sure on when we are going to announce but I hope I’ll be able to share more info with you soon.

I’ve been thinking a lot about what I want to do with my life lately. Being in a job that I don’t like sucks, but it’s also great for fueling motivations towards everything else I want to do. The fear of being stuck in this job forever is one of the things that gets me off the couch after dinner every day and onto my computer.

“Go work on your dreams” I tell myself.

“What the hell even are my dreams?” my brain has been replying lately.

The truth is, I’ve spent the past two months trying to figure that out. I go from this state of being full of energy and motivation, ready to do everything I need to do to become the person I want to be, ready to pour my heart and soul onto my work, to a state of not knowing what I want to do with the rest of my life and not even being able to get out of my chair and away from my computer, so just sitting there staring at the work I was so into 5 minutes ago and just being confused as to where my energy went.

This may be just another up on this roller coaster. But I’d like to think it isn’t. I’d like to think this up is here to stay. Because I know that it’s okay to change my mind and it’s okay to want to do something different and it’s okay to question my own passions sometimes. I know I know this. I know I’ve always known this.

But sometimes I forget.

I want to be able to say that this is it, that I’m done with this up and down and that I’m going to stay up and I’m going to always give 100% in everything I do. I want to be able to say this and know that I’m going to keep my word. But I cannot. Not yet. And that’s okay as long as I keep trying.

There’s a lot of things I’ve been trying to figure out but there’s no reason why I should stay silent while I do this. There’s no reason why not knowing what I want to do should mean to just not do anything at all.

There’s a bunch of things that have been helping me get myself out of this state of confusion and constant sleepiness, one of them being my boyfriend Matt, whom I’m afraid I cannot share with you. He’s taken. 😉

Some of the other things, however, I have shared below. If you’re anything like me, I hope they help. But, then again, if you’re anything like me, I know they will.

Videos:

Blogs:

Harnessing Entrepeneurial Manic Depression – Making The Rollercoaster Work For You

ZackBellGains 3. Especially the section about saying yes to things.

These are just my favourite go-to places for motivation at the moment. I plan on going back to this post and adding anything new that I come across, so keep an eye out!

Also feel free to let me know what gets you out of bed in the comments, I’d love to see/hear all of your favourite snippets of motivation 🙂

For now, I’m going to continue making video games and trying to become the best version of myself that I can be.

I hope you are having a wonderful week and I hope you know that I believe that you can achieve great things today. Go be amazing!

-Marta